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Lucia Kula was only eight when war came to her doorstep and upended her life. A civil war had raged for years in her birthplace of Angola and her father was held political prisoner. To save her two daughters, Lucia鈥檚 mother picked up the family and fled for safer ground.

They made their way to the cold and rainy city of Lelystad in the Netherlands. 鈥淚t saved us from the conflict in Angola,鈥� Ms. Kula recalls.

鈥淚t was a complete culture shock, coming from a conflict environment to a country where you don鈥檛 speak the language, you don鈥檛 know the culture and customs,鈥� Lucia says. The new environment felt strange and unfamiliar, and she often felt confused and lost.

鈥淚magine moving to a country when you are eight years of age, and for 12 years you don鈥檛 have a permanent resident permit. It means any day you could be deported,鈥� Ms. Kula told Africa Renewal.

Despite the allure of Western life, Ms. Kula has not forgotten her motherland or her identity. 鈥淚 always call myself an Angolan-Dutch researcher.

鈥淚t meant years of insecurity and having your life on hold, mental exhaustion and legal battles. It also meant years of not knowing where home was. School was my escape. I dreamt about all the things I could do, all the places I could go and the freedom it would give me,鈥� she wrote in an article published by I am a Migrant, IOM鈥檚 platform for promoting diversity and inclusion of migrants in society.

She added: 鈥淚 was always active with youth issues, migrant issues and student political activism. I organised debates and conferences, was vice president of the student union, secretary for an international youth fund, but not a resident.鈥�

The family lived in asylum centres on the outskirts of town, and Lucia struggled to develop close relationships with others. 鈥淲e moved about nine times and most of the centres were far from the city.鈥� Although people were generally not hostile toward her, that did not mitigate the stigma of being a refugee.

鈥淭here is the stigma and the ignorance attached to a refugee or an asylum seeker. Local communities did not understand anything about refugees, and as a child it was very difficult for me to explain,鈥� said Lucia, inferring that refugees are seen as beggars.

鈥淲hen that resident permit was finally issued, followed by the Dutch nationality a few years later, I finally felt like I could exhale,鈥� she wrote.

鈥淚 received a partial scholarship in 2013 to do my master鈥檚 in London, UK. I completed my master鈥檚 and continued to pursue a PhD in law. Now, three years later, London is home. I miss it when I鈥檓 away, I feel comfortable and challenged to do more.鈥�

Ms. Kula also researches and teaches refugee and migrant studies at the School of Oriental and African Studies at the University of London.

She has traveled many times to Angola to conduct research and says she might even settle there one day.

While her mother and sisters plan to remain in the Netherlands, a place they now consider home, Lucia prefers London, thrilled by the city鈥檚 multiculturalism and diversity.

Despite the allure of Western life, Ms. Kula has not forgotten her motherland or her identity. 鈥淚 always call myself an Angolan-Dutch researcher. I do identify as Angolan first, and then Dutch. The culture and customs that I grew up with are African. It鈥檚 the best of both worlds, so to say,鈥� she enthused.

Her mother made a conscious decision to move to a safer place because they wanted their children to live in a safe environment and have a future, she said. Her father was later released but died years later.

A refugee who is now a researcher can credibly speak on refugee matters. She would like conversations to focus more on how migrants and refugees can contribute to enriching a society rather than on how to protect borders and count populations.听 听 听